COULDN'T STOP THINKKING

I'm suffering insomnia...
nothing to say,juz keeping memorizes our memories..
fight,sad,sweet,happy,unforgettable...
my feeling is so bad...



..................miss u MR♥J....................

STRUGGLING AND WAITING

Today,in school,maybe some of u saw i cried a few times..when told my love problems to ivy,i lost of control.my tears resembled a stream of water..omg,i'm so ugly at tat moment.why i become like this,in mandarin call行尸走肉.i'm so bitch..bitchy peddy,is it love is your whole?without love,without him,y u couldn't survived??if u really wanna die,do it right now!don't wait anymore!guys,i'm so bitch rite?! but y i still feel so pain??so hurt?? if u know me,u're sure know how much i love him..if u know me,u're sure know how hard our love are..anything and everything we got is not so easily..i'm struggling and still waiting the miracle will happen..since i'm so sure i want the love coming back,i must be tough,i must be strong,i must be control my feeling well..i'm not a fool,i know wat i wanted the most, i know wat i'm doing now..i'll do my own decision..i'll think it seriously....


MR♥J,i still countdown our 1000days...i still wait..loving u...

IN LOVE WITH YOU

-MR♥J-

JUST A GENTLE WHISPER
TOLD ME THAT YOU'D GONE
LEAVING ONLY MEMORIES WHERE DID WE GO WRONG
I COULDN'T FIND THE WORDS THEN
SO LET ME SAY THEM NOW- l'M STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU
TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME .
TELL ME THAT YOU CARE
TELL ME THAT YOU NEED ME . I'LL BE THERE
I 'LL BE THERE WAlTlNG
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
I WILL ALWAYS STAY TRUE
THERE'S NO ONE WHO LOVES YOU LIKE I DO
COME TO ME NOW
I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU
I WILL STAY HERE WITH YOU
THROUGH THE GOOD AND BAD
I WILL STAND TRUE I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU


未来的每一步一脚印 踏着彼此梦想前进
路上偶尔风吹雨淋 也要紧握你的手心
未来的每一步一脚印 相知相惜相依为命
别忘记我们之间的约定 我会永远在你身边陪着你

Aii~~

BBQ wif my BSMM frens yesterday...actually,tat's a RELIEVE OF CEREMONY...not too many ppl attend..we also invite senior.the food is delicious n tq XUEXUE.she in charges of food tis time.i eat a little bit only..no appetite..no hungry...

have a lot of chat wif ex senior...they're so funny...when chat wif them,i feel comfortable n relax...i tell xiaobai the things abt me n MR.J...he knows i'm sad.he also afraid i will cry out in front of him.so he keep comfort me..tq xiaobai..suddenly,he asks me "你有想过你们适合吗？" i think n think after that..i asks my frens,wat 's call suitable?...i receive different types of answers...i dunnoe wat can i do now..sit n wait?impossible!
struggling.....

MINE

Have my lunch at STATION 1,bkt indah wif my dear family juz now...damn nice..i ordered chicken chop wif black pepper flavour...mamamiya..haha!don't wait anymore guys,u must try it!it's onlyRM12.90/13.90 only..reasonable price rite??come on..



Finally,i have my own facebook account..i prefer frenster larr actually bcos frenster is neat n we can design our own-style layout..more sistematic.. facebook have a lot of games to play but messy...ok,anyway,add me lorr when u meet me there...hehe...

170909-my dad'sbirthday

MR.J, I'll wait ur answer...concentrate ur work first..we still need some times..

WHITE VALENTINE'S DAY

Hey guys,let's introduce u a nice and significance love song BY-

Tank—白色情人节


或许你总是笑我傻,但在爱情里,我是个虔诚的信徒,
还记得那夜　青春最初一页
眼前的世界　看起来快毁灭
你在我身边　看著屋檐　像末日的雨天
倘若雨大一些　是否靠近一点
你没有察觉　心跳特别强烈
颱风把沉默　吹袭了一整夜
明明有感觉　可惜时间　溜出了我指尖
回头只看得见　满地回忆的碎片
答案一直到今天　才在我心中浮现　爱情曾出现
那一瞬间　我们都没发现
那雨势一直到今天　还下在我心裡面　淋湿了双眼 事过境迁　才清晰地看见　你的脸
（女）被爱情背叛的女孩,在心中留下了重重的伤口 她告诉自己再也不要相信爱情了 直到遇见了生命中注定的那个人
（男）小姐，请问非你莫属这首歌是谁唱的啊？
（女）不可以，我就是要听这首歌 （
男）可是，真的没有这首歌啊
（女）先生，你应该什么歌都要会唱吧，不然民歌餐厅呆假的哦？
（男）小姐，请问你是在哪里听过这首歌的啊？
（女）在我心里
（男）啊？
（女）呵呵，开玩笑的啦你应该很喜
（男）恩，我很喜欢唱歌啊，我的梦想
（女）恩，既然你那么喜欢唱歌那你就
（男）你是开玩笑的吧
（女）如果，我是认真的呢？
（男）在她伪装的笑容中，我竟然看 你最后的微笑 祝福的味道 多完美的微笑 在渴望温柔的肩上 爱无可救药 我被换掉 保护自己别受到 话里沉默的讨好 要我别管你过的不好 祝福到 （女）不会吧，你真的来了！
（男）不是你叫我来的吗？
（女）我只是，我只是......
（男）那现在到底怎么样啊?我要不要
（女）唱唱唱，当然要唱咯
（男）不管晴天或雨天，我只想每 你说你是雨天　而我是太阳耀眼　 说我不适合出现在　你住的灰色世界 ]想晒乾你的泪　却被你简单拒绝　 在我手心裡的温度　好想要分给你一点 我忽然期待天空能下一场雨　 我在冰冷的夜　慢慢了解你 晴天　雨天　谁说不能相恋　 我偏偏只想　和你在一起 今天　明天　我都不想远离　 我难过起来　晴天下了雨
（女）你相信爱情吗?
（男）当然相信啊那
（女）那你怕不怕被背叛
（男）呃，我觉得爱情是不能勉强，
（女）你是笨蛋啊!我告诉你这个世
（男）我知道你的心受了伤，但不管那
（女）从那一刻后，女孩消失在男孩的世界
（男）我依然每天到她的门口等她，只希望看 没有谁能把妳抢离我身旁　 妳是我的专属天使　唯我能独佔 没有谁能取代妳在我心上　 拥有一个专属天使　 我哪裡还需要别的愿望 要不是妳出现　我一定还在沉睡　 绝望的以为　生命只有黑夜 没有谁能把妳抢离我身旁　 妳是我的专属天使　唯我能独佔 没有谁能取代妳在我心上　 拥有一个专属天使　 我哪裡还需要别的愿望 （女）台风天气你站在这里干嘛，
（男）我不走！因为我要送你一首歌
（女）你到底在说什么？
（男）我要送你一首歌，一首我写的歌，非你莫属
（女）什么？
（男）你忘了吗？这是你要我唱的歌啊
（女）你还记得哦
（男）我从来没有忘记,希望非你
（女）（crying）你怎么那么傻？谢谢，谢谢...... 整个宇宙　浩瀚无边的尽头　 每颗渺小星球　全都绕著你走 ＊爱我　非你莫属　我只愿　 守护　由你给我的幸福 爱我　非你莫属　也许会　 笑著哭　但那人是你所以　不怕苦
（女）原来我一直不孤单，谢谢你
（男）你知道吗　我很喜欢牵著你的手的感觉
那是什麼样子　我好希望再来一次
懂得让我微笑的人　再没有谁比你有天份 轻易闯进我的心门　明天的美梦你完成
整个宇宙　浩瀚无边的尽头　 每颗渺小星球　全都绕著你走
爱我　非你莫属　我只愿　 守护　由你给我的幸福
爱我　非你莫属　也许会　 笑著哭　但那人是你所以　不怕苦
懂得让我流泪的人　给的感动一定是最深 在我心中留下伤痕　你同时点亮了星辰
整个宇宙　浩瀚无边的尽头　 每颗渺小星球　全都绕著你走
爱我　非你莫属　我只愿　 守护　由你给我的幸福
爱我　非你莫属　也许会 笑著哭　但那人是你所以　不怕苦
看　那麼多相遇　偏偏只和你　 天造地设般產生奇蹟
哦　我心的缝隙　我想除了你　 任谁也无法填补这空虚

FINALLY..

Finally,have a long-time-chat wif ♥MR.J♥at midnight..we chatted until 6a.m..
we told each other the truth,we told each other the minds...and finally both of us cried...
we feel so sorry to each other for those wrongs we have done..we hurt so much...we're so care to everythings but we can't do well ,then both of us r heartbroken..we chatted abt the past..the words we said..the messanges we sent..the memories we have..anything n everything we have..happy,sad,sweet,unforgettable ones....


And one more,vr unfair to me..tat bitch,u must go hell,i've nvr meet a slut gal like u ..u must take care of urself.if one day i meet u, i will kill u..trust me,i won't let u go..u dares to entice my b.f,so u must prepares for the aftermath i will give u..wait n see..i will let u beg me.dun let me meet u..oOo

WOULD U BE THERE

such a boring holidays make me wanna died.my god!
wat can i do at home?sleeping,eating,playing,thinking of him..wat else?dunnoe already..
ok,i think i need to do some arrangements for my holidays.maybe go to watch some movies,shopping or wat,anyway,i should treasure tis chances to have a lot of funs.bcos after tis holidays,i need to pay all my attention to prepare my SPMexam.maybe there are no so much time to rest.



Receive my fren's messanges juz now.he says his girlfren wants breaks up.he wants me to help them.i say ok.but i laugh myself.i can help others,but i couldn't help myself.haha.so funny rite?really really..i'm so useless.but anyway,i can help them to reunion,i also feel vr happy..god will bless them..tresure wat you have guys..y i look so sad..yes,i admit i'm so sad,i can't survive without him like i think.i've let him becomes a part of my real life..i'm weak actually ok.i'm just a little woman,a 17 yrs old lady..wat i wanted is simple love..is it so difficult to get it??not rite?y i feel so hard?is it i'm worse??is my problems or him???our love is so weak.napei,love is bitch.i 'm crazy already....


WOULD YOU BE THERE
If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that’s ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.
If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one?
To take my breath away?
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one?
To take my breath away?
Would you be there……
If I will wait, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,All the way..
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be there,to kiss my pain away..
Would you be there?F
or me..

NEW TEMPLATES-DEAR DIARY

Hey guys..my old ugly templates is changed already..tis one nice rite?red+black..i like tat feel..wat abt u??

Announcement: i will re-public my bloggie somedays..

♥MR.J♥
same as usual, today,i miss u so much too...cannot stop thinking u..u've be a part of my life..i'm sure..how do i survive without u???can't be imaged...i may died or changed to another person...i dun wan...i wan u...


ok.tat's all for tis post..i need to go for bath...have my lunch outside later.....

I just come back frm my car lessons..have a little bit tired..luckily,today's weather is not so hot and i feel very happy..next saturday,i will attend my car trial exam..so fast..after tat,i can attend my real exam on 5th or 7th oct...i'm happy??i'm not sure too..


missing MR.J right now...i love u..



--------------------tat's all for tis post--------------------------

RIGHT HERE WAITING

finally my 1week-school holiday is coming ..trial exam really made me crazy..shit!

i really dunno when i must to start my bloggie cos it's really too much needed to say..

tis also a problem actually..haha..ok nvr mind,juz follows my mood ..

yesterday is my dad's birthday...so we went out to have our lunch in a restoran at TTA..

walao so gaowei lorr the dishes.at the moment, i kept thinking tat how come tis restoran can be survived until now??after backed home,wo took out a chocolate cake i chose and sang birthday songs to dad..a lot of pictures are taken..upload later....

recently, i 'm so severely affected by my love matter..there are too many problems among us..maybe u dunno only...i gonna died ..so sad so unhappy...even every papers in my trial exam,i couldn't concentrated..i couldn't stop thinking him .anything..everything..i'm so useless rite..so weak k..i dunno how to solve our problems cos i nvr seriously ask him everything i wanna know...i afraid to get any answer .i'm loss of control ...i feel heartbroken..is it love so difficult to manage?is it the end of our road?i really dunnoe..but i dunwan...i dunwan give up tis 978days love..so long..so sweet..and so love u..GOD pls bless me..pls...

there's no one who loves u like i do..leaving only memorie where we did we go wrong..i couldn't find the words then,so let me say them-I STILL LOVE U

specially for grace...

伤心之时，我也有个开心的事。今天，是我的好朋友：GRACE卉卉的生日^^

happy birthday to you happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you happy birthday to you

祝你生日快乐 祝你生日快乐

祝你生日快乐 祝你生日快乐

selamat hari jadi selamat hari jadi

selamat hari jadi selamat hari jadi

要开心哟！希望你事事顺利，心想事成，终于17岁了哟^^

也要祝你spm靠到好成绩！大家一起加油，还有阿玲！

明天看到你，包个红包给你哟，考完试了，我们帮你补回来，不能拒绝哟~~

不要放弃自己

不管发生什么事，我都不可以放弃我自己，要加油！
一切都会过去的，就算天塌下来，只要我不放弃，什么事情都会熬过去的，要相信，天无绝人之路。。我要努力，要过得更好，要忘记一切，我做得到的对不对？？张欣怡，加油加油加油！！不要再去想了，不要再流泪了，要对自己好一点。
现在最重要的是考试不是吗？答应过自己要做到最好的不是吗？一定要努力，很快就会过去了，加油加油加油


我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你泪停不下来
你知道我依赖多不想say g-bye
我痛说不出来
我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你快乐都停摆
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
回头看爱 都在

ps:pls dun ask me anything...tq

变了

这几天考试。。2个字：辛苦！要考好好噢，不然会很伤心会后悔的，要加油！



最近很不开心，没什么想在这里写出来。。只有一句话：我厌倦了远距离。。一切都不是那么容易。。



今天你当完兵出来了，3个月，不长不短，改变的东西也不少。。
一切都不一样了。。想要得，期待的，以前的，都不会实现了。。。



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*pls dun ask me WHY